Farewell

I started writing to have the conversations I wanted to have. People who’ve been reading from the beginning know this for a fact, some of my write-ups were conversational between me and an unknown other. Even my attempts at fiction continued to have this flavor, I used to bring in secondary characters to have a conversation with.  I used to talk about school, the people I like, and the random thoughts I used to have during nights or so.

Beyond the content of the blogs, the publishing model also followed a similar suit.  Blogs that used to come out on weekends were a roughly put-together compilation of conversations. The blogs were short-time projects, written down during the couple of hours of internet allowance I had during weekends. Little editing went into it, one could say that it was something like an unscripted podcast, but as a blog.  The entries were fraught with spelling mistakes, broken sentences, and haphazardly placed paragraphs. Nevertheless, it was a form of catharsis especially when some people were nice enough to initiate extended conversations regarding the same.

It’s been like that for the last six years, with slight variations in the kind of content and readership. But over the things I have realized in these six years, this conversation-fueled mode of writing has been affecting my overall writing projects. This includes academic essays, creative writing assignments, and more, where this ability to churn out a quick 1000 words has made it rather impossible for me to work on a long-term project.

I find it hard to write an academic essay over the weeks even if I have the time and resources to do the same. Parts of many writing projects have ended up in blogs, something that later affected the ability to continue with these projects. It seems what started out as a self-discovered therapeutic process is now weighing on my attempts to establish myself as a practitioner of the craft.

It is rather disheartening, but over the last couple of months, I have realized that this blog has to go. At least for now. The next time, you see a blog with my name, hopefully, I would have been able to complete certain projects I’ve been working on for some time. I’ll write more, but not about the conversations I want to have. I will write when there is something I am proud of, something I have accomplished, or when I have something I want to share to the little community I have built over the last five or six years. Thank you for being there. Thank you for giving me this opportunity.

Until Next Time